This song keeps coming on and reminding me of Jaime and her beautiful soul. It is a hauntingly perfect song in the best of ways. Still feel so much adrenalin and heartbreak when I hear it 18 years later. Rushing to Jaime at the hospital for taking too many pills was a normal occurrence for a while. This time felt different...When I turned the keys and the ignition started, I heard Dave's haunting voice and this song. I knew deep down in my soul that it would be the last time I'd have to rush to the ER for an episode of Jaime'soverdose...She took too much...The song played for the entire 15-minute drive to the hospital, it ended when I pulled up. I remember blaring it so loud to keep my mind focused on the road and not the horror that was to come. It prepared me for what was to be...
"Forget about being guilty, We are innocent instead, For soon we will all find our lives swept away..."
The relapse-"Sometimes I feel like I am falling, Fall back again..."
Jaime's monsters were her prescription pills and the heroin...her war was her addiction.."You seek up a big monster, For him to fight your wars for you, But when he finds his way to you, the devil's not, Going--ha, ha..."
Sometimes I feel like I'm falling
Fall back again, fall back again,
Fall back again, fall back again
Oh, life it seems a struggle between
What we see what we do
I'm not going to change my ways
Just to please you or appease you
Look at this crowd, six billion proud
Willing to punch it out
Right, wrong, weak, strong
Ashes to ashes all fall down
Look around about this round
About this merry-go-round and around
If at all God's gaze upon us falls
It's with a mischievous grin, look at him
Forget about the reasons and
The treasons we are seeking
Forget about the notion that
Our emotions can be kept at bay
Forget about being guilty,
We are innocent instead
For soon we will all find our lives swept away
Look at me in my fancy car
And my bank account
Oh, how I wish I could take it all down
Into my grave, I'd save
Take a look again, take a look again,
Take a look again
Everyday things change,
But they all stay the same
Forget about the reasons and
The treasons we are seeking
Forget about the notion that your emotions can be
Wept away, kept at bay
Forget about being guilty,
I am innocent instead
For soon we will all find our lives swept away
You seek up an emotion
And our cup is overflowing
You seek up an emotion,
Sometimes your well is dry
You seek up a big monster
For him to fight your wars for you
But when he finds his way to you, the devil's not
Going--ha, ha
Say, oh say
Late at night with TV's hungry child
His belly swells
Oh, for a price of a coke or a smoke
I could keep alive those hungy eyes
Take a look again, take a look again
Take a look again
Every day things change
But basically you and me stay the same
Forget about the reasons and
The treasons we are seeking
Forget about the notion that
Our emotions can be kept at bay
Intentions are not wicked,
Don't be tricked into thinking so
Soon we will all find our lives swept away
You seek up an emotion
And our cup is overflowing
You seek up an emotion,
Sometimes your well is dry
You seek up a big monster
For him to fight your wars for you
But when he finds his way to you,
The devil's not going--ha, ha
Fall back again, fall back again,
fall back again...
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